Once again into the breech...

     This morning is not a good morning. It just isn't. so I have dug into google and blogger and found my blogs. Ramblings seems to be the best fit for this. It isn't about model railroads. It isn't about trains. It is just about this morning. I don't want to work today. I just want to crawl under a rock. I have a list of things to do, and I don't want to start any of them. I understand how people become hermits and just try to disappear from the world. Yet at the same time I don't understand it. I believe the military actually gives us many coping mechanisms to push through things like this. I wonder if I need counseling or a support group. For now I rely on friends, family and my Lord. 

Philippians 4:6-8New King James Version (NKJV)

6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. 

8 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.

     Sometimes it feels easier said than done. I am very blessed. Despite that, anxiety and depression can hit me like a freight train. (Yes I like that metaphor better than a ton of bricks, go figure.) Well this is the first time in over six years I have touched my blogs. But things I have read say journaling is important both to improving life and work. So the big question is, should I do this like this, public, or private with pen and paper. Should I let people in or keep to myself. Is this a form of treatment or self medication? Should I seek help. I also need to use my GI bill. I have many books piled up waiting to be read. And then there is my Bible.

     Lord help me make it through this day.